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<>kitty..........<>
when i first met her, i was a horny young man. although i remain as
such. i feel as if i've gotten to know her on a personal level. She is
intelligent and honest, with an open mind. i look forward to meeting
her.
<>Suz.........<>
she has this talent of being the referee no matter to situation. her
nuetrallity and willingness to be there for peoples makes me wonder how
she does it. she has always been a good person. reminds me of the
bartender that always knows the drink you want. she is the queen bee of
yahoo. 
<>Caine.......<>
a good guy all around, although i think he needs a bit of a kick in the
but for sex life, but different strokes for different folks. but
i hear he has found someone thus far, and i wish him the best of luck.
as always, i'm sure he can make it work.
<>Ali.......<>
well, she needs a true friend and confidaunt. i know that she has a
hard life, it ain't easy. i'd love to help her, just not in the way she
wants. i can't be her lover, but i can be her friend, thats all i have
to say about it.
<>Everyone Else.......<>
all the others that i didn't mention, you are not far from my haert,
and my mind. as people you have helped me get used to the yahoo world
again. for that i thank you.
<>The real reason that i have a blog<>
i just wanted to tell everyone that doesn't know yet, that i am
going up to washington to visit kitty and get to know each other.
hopefully it will become more than that, but past experience tells me
that i should take things slow, thus the one week visit, or trial
period.
i don't need my heart broken once more, and i don't think that she does
either. so i hope that it will work, and i will try my hardest to do so.
excelsor
Rogue
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| You all will be either happy, or sad, to know that i've calmed down in
that past few weeks. my horniness has turned to loneliness in the
utmost extreme. my abilities to maintain a realisticly forward view has
started poping up on a regular basis. it makes me look pessimistic.
Which is not how i am, or not how i try to be. i'm just a guy, but i
miss the closeness that a relationship came with. the friendship that
was a mainstay of any relationship. i think that you all can
agree with me on that, the ability to be with someone, even for a
little bit, in body, mind and soul. the energies that come forth mean
so much to me now, i am getting more moree detatched.
i worry about ali, suz, kitty, all of my new friends, even caine,
more and more lately. the only thing that i can say right now is that i
hope to find, some one, any one. i need a friend that i can feel, touch
, see.
if anyone that reads this is in the Albuquerque , NM area, i need a
friend, not a quick fuck. or not JUST a quick fuck. i need someone to
be there for me and me for her. i'm not sure if i can find someone like
that. or rather i have, i just can't get to her.
excelsior
Rogue
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| hello, and welcome to my blog. my friends convinced me to do it. how, i'm not really sure but anyway.
<*>new friends<*>
well, i've found a nice room that has accepted me, but i've made the
mistake of going in there as the horny young man i was at the time.
typically, i'm a very intelligent person with a mind for respectable
debate on a variety of topics. yet i've been to lonely to really care
about decent conversation. the only saveing grace, so to say, is the
fact that i've been asked to be that way on occasion. but believe it or
not, i'm more than just a good "cock show".
<*>my ex<*>
after almost a year in texas, the land i've wanted to go back to for so
damn long, i feel that i have royally fucked up. after an ordeal with
people i care not to mention, my credit is shot, i'm back living with
my parents, and i am being psychicly attacked by my ex roomate. lucky
me.
yet i have taken it as a learning experience, and i've been defending
myself fairly well. i just hope that my ex Girlfriend is nice enough to
send me my W2s to me. i'm beginning to doubt that i will be able to see
them at all. and i have to file taxes, period so thats going to be an
ordeal in itself.
<*>working stiff<*>
i work alot lately, but the guy that does the schedules at my place of
employment has decided for me to go from 4 days a week, 5 hours a day,
to 7 days a week, 8 hours a day. although i don't mind the extra hours,
its just i would like some advanced notice before hand. i think he does
it in spite. personally, i'd like to drag his bald head across a stuko
wall. but all that aside, i'm getting better at my job. been getting
compliments on my work, they give me all the caffine i want. i get
discounts on ciggeretts( even if they are the ones they where going to
throw out anyway, but 1 dallar for a pack is good).
<*>Where it always ends up.......<*>
well, in my lifetime, i've not been in an extended conversation,
without it going into sex, old men, college professors, doesn't matter.
it will touch on the sex subject. and so i will exmine this right now.
i've been noticing alot of ladies only are either dominate or
submissive in nature. my view on this whole ordeal is somewhat
stradling the fence on this.
i like sex both rough and gentle, personally, gentleness has its place,
so does a little roughness. but when it comes to being gentle, i'd like
the girl to worshipped by me and to her to be INVOLVED. nothing
specail, just remember, two people are haveing sex, not one going at it
with what can be classified as a sex doll warmed over. thats just wrong
and if it comes to that, i will stop, put on my cloths and leave
without saying a word. when it comes to rough sex, i can be both sub
and dom, but i'd rather not be either. personally, i'd rather it be a
battle, like a fight with pleasure. i want just as many bruises, scars
and bloody marks as she has. i want to taste the adrinilin on he and in
me. thats a concept i hope will catch on.
<*>ummmm.....bye?<*>
this is my first post on this blog, i hope that you enjoyed it or
something like that. maybe just feel something at all. Divine guide
your paths, bright blessings, and merry part, till we merry meet again.
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